I'm in the process of changing the way I offer my energy healing work. And while I'm admittedly a bit nervous, I'm also thrilled beyond belief by the possibilities.
Some months ago, a friend had an intensely complicated life situation and I could "see" obstructing karma all around it. (A significant amount of my healing work involves working with karma from Buddhist, energetic and Shamanic healing ways.) This woman is very dear to me, that rarest of rare soul friends. I didn't hesitate for a moment to say here's what I see, here's what we can do, if you want this I would like to offer you some of my healing work.
We did a long distance healing session a few weeks later. It took two, possibly three hours to work through the all the layers. I saw karmic healing in my friend and karmic clearing in the other people involved. The healing shifts were enormous and very beautiful. I was happy for my friend and I basked quietly in the joy of being part of her healing change.
This woman is a person of great integrity and generosity. I knew, sooner or later, she would raise the subject of paying me. When she did my reply was fully prepared. The healing session was given out of love, I said. I repeated how much we give each other through our remarkable friendship. At the same time -- knowing my work, my spiritual practice and my financial state -- if she wanted to support me, I told her I would be happy to receive any donation she might like to make.
She sent an exceptionally generous check (actually 2 checks) a few weeks later.
Two weeks ago, my friend received a call out of the blue from the key "other" involved in our karmic healing work. Instead of grasping and anger that person had found peace of mind. Instead of threatening legal action that person offered gratitude. My friend and I marveled at the change. I could feel her breath fully in her.
What was unique about this work was not the power of the session or the outcome. The healing was huge because my friend really wanted it and was completely open to it. My clients make me look gifted, but everything depends on them. Truly.
What was unique about this work is what didn't happen. I didn't check the mail to see if payment had come in time for the session. Didn't wonder if the client would cancel at the last minute (not because it wasn't a possibility, but because it didn't matter.) I didn't worry that this person was expecting me to "fix" them, which is totally draining to me and completely unsuccessful for them. And I didn't question for even a moment if my regular fees were too high or my sliding fees too low.
In other words, I completely let go of every concern that was outside of what I had to bring to the healing work.
The freedom was unparalleled.
This is the way I want to work. This is the way I need to work. Healing as a complete love offering. Healing for people of absolute integrity. Healing for people who need or want change and are ready to reach for it. Healing for people who recognize and value it.
Healing in exchange for donations.
Thanks for your comments, Mahala, and welcome back. I had stopped checking your site. Did you take the photo on your nameplate? It's gorgeous! I'm glad your friend has had a healing by letting Spirit work through you and having so much faith that she moved her own mountains.
Posted by: Fran | Dec 04, 2004 at 01:16 AM
Mahala,
I have just found you by way of Chodpa's blog, Luminous Emptiness. I see in you another kindred spirit. I am pleased to make your acquaintance. Your posting above shows such rich living in the moment, unafraid, working directly from your heart.
Blessings rain down on you,
Meredith
Posted by: Meredith | Dec 06, 2004 at 02:20 PM
Fran, good to see you back here. No, I didn't take the photo, but I do love it too.
Meredith, thank you so so much for your words of kindness and support! And welcome! I'm not quite unafraid about my choice. But when I move beyond the quivering little recesses, the Yes is musical and clear.
Posted by: mahala | Dec 06, 2004 at 07:34 PM
Mahala, I, too, believe that this is the most wonderful way to work. I wish from my deepest heart that you are successful in this.
Posted by: Tinne | Dec 06, 2004 at 11:52 PM
Mmmmmm, letting go .... what a wonderful thing, when it 'happens' ..... how wonderful, how mysterious, this doing without doing, then all things get done!
best wishes to you
Posted by: Chodpa | Dec 07, 2004 at 01:37 AM